Since the last presentation I have been considering ways to move my project forward. I've had the artists' equivalent of writers block. Everything I've been doing has been strained, forced and quite frankly unnatural! and you know... I had been convincing myself that it was vanity, that I fancied myself as a painter and that I was being stubborn by not moving to another medium. But actually when I REALLY think about it its not that at all! It's not a matter of it being, vanity, stubbornness or that fact that other media are 'out of my comfort zone', it's actually the desire for my work at the degree show to reflect my identity as an artist so that, in some way, visitors of the show will leave knowing me (through my work) a little better.
Now you might say, 'THAT IS VANITY!'. I disagree. Vanity would suggest I wanted people to look favourably at me, that I wanted to show off in some way. Not at all. I want people to see my work and what I produce in a realistic way. Thats how they'll know me. and If they like it then thats a positive, but if they don't I'll still be happy because at least I've produced something that reflects my practice openly and honestly.
My work has been through a few twists and turns over the past few weeks. Thats part due to a lack of confidence, and part due to the fact I don't really know what direction to move in and part because of the combination which I was referring to as writers block before.
I was recently lucky enough to have a one on one meeting with a very successful artist, James Iverson, who really picked me up and gave me some inspiration. But I'll save that for the next post.
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